how is it already october lyrics

[Verse]
(I've felt) Like I'm runnin' a rat race (this way)
I'ma kill myself, so I'm comin' in last place (oh no)
Why you lookin' at me with your eyes in a bad way? (I really shouldn't stay)
It's already autumn, I waited, I've matched my days
(I felt) On my shoulders, it's too much weight (so strange)
And there's nothing left for me here anyways (will you)
(Talk to me again?) It's already autumn, but I'm okay
With knowing I'll be dead by Valentine's—

[Outro]
(I've felt) Like I'm runnin' a rat race (this way)
I'ma kill myself, so I'm comin' in last place (oh no)
Why you lookin' at me with your eyes in a bad way? (I really shouldn't stay)
It's already autumn, I waited, I've matched my days
(I felt) On my shoulders, it's too much weight (so strange)
And there's nothing left for me here anyways (will you)
(Talk to me again?) It's already autumn, but I'm okay
With knowing I'll be dead by Valentine's—