An Open Letter: the Introduction lyrics

Before I begin -
Excuse me while I drop a bountiful donation into the swear jar
Because in these next few moments, I'm taking you for everything you are
As you took me for everything that I was
Everything that I could have been -
You took me for granted

Countless nights, I counted the hours and the reasons of my being with your busted ass
Was I that desperate
That I would allow for you to treat me as the rag tucked under your mattress?
Was I that bored
That I would see your outbursts as entertainment for the time being?
You thought that sh*t was cute!

I begged for negligence -
While you begged to eat my pus*y -
But I wanted you to starve!!
I fiened for your malnourishment
Why should I have to prepare such a feast for the n*gga who constantly force-fed me bullsh*t?
I mean, it's not like I was missing out on anything -
But could you say the same for yourself?

I figured love was written on my sleeve
But it turns out I was just lazy and in need of a good bath
In order to rinse myself of the sins that you had commited against me
You stained my favourite shirt