Life is a beautiful mess
They ask me how I'm holding up I said I'm doing my best
I would love to just go back to the usual stress
But the sh*t gets escalated when you losing a best friend
I'm putting on my suit for the wrong reasons
Feeling like it's bout to be a long season
Put the visa through the credit card reader
I been spending all my money give a f*ck about it either
f*ck an overdraft I'm over that bought a fifth and throw it back
Throw it up then do it all again cause I been holding back
Tears I've been holding back and fears I been holding back
Bracing for the hit but God forgot to give me shoulder pads
A helmet ain't gonna help for the blows and getting high as f*ck
Surely ain't gonna help for the lows
I been up and at em early I was setting some goals
But this a set back I had to sit back in my zone
All the sh*t that just happen got me feeling alone
Just when I started to get comfortable and feeling like home
f*ck
I think we need more loving
But more importantly we need a reset button, more importantly we need a rest button this the type that really make me start bugging God
Life is a beautiful mess
They ask me how I'm holding up I said I'm doing my best
I would love to just go back to the usual stress
But the sh*t gets escalated when you losing a best friend
What more can I can say looking up to God like how much can I pray
Talking to myself like how much more can I take
Being positive ain't easy trying hard not to break
I got my guard up feeling like a target
Frozen and I'm speechless you would think I'm f*cking star struck
But get up out my way ain't nobody gonna stopping me now
I'll f*ck the whole game up when me and Rocky in town
Homie I ain't got my feet wet yet
I'm about to shoot from long range without my feet set
They ain't take it serious I'll show em
I'm a deep threat this a sneak peak to the peak
I haven't reached yet, each step I'm getting closer
Every breath I'm getting older
I would love to get some closure
I know you somewhere on this earth where the energy live
But in the mean time I'll store you where my memory is
I know you somewhere on this earth where the energy live
But in the mean time I'll store you where my memory is
Life is a beautiful mess
They ask me how I'm holding up I said I'm doing my best
I would love to just go back to the usual stress
But the sh*t gets escalated when you losing a best friend