Watch me die slowly lyrics

I f*ckin' hate you
I f*ckin miss you
All the nights we stayed up
All the times we f*cked up
All the things you said
Did you mean them?

I f*ckin' loved you
Did what i could for you
I tried to save you
Left me, i can't blame you
I'm f*ckin' narcissistic
When the pain's consistent
With all the times i'm missin'
I'm just wishin' this isn't how it has to be
But i f*cked it up
I always f*ck sh*t up
But you won't hear me say it
I won't admit saudade
I'm stuck with all this pain
I'm stuck inside my mind
I hope i die this time
I hope you hear me baby
Screamin' in the woods
I'm really lonely lately
I wish you understood
Watch me die slowly x4