Lost lyrics

[NANCY]
Is it okay, like, do you mind
If I tell you 'bout something close to me? A tragedy
You know that jumper that I have
It's big and grey and fits me perfectly?
I lost it
I realised I hadn't seen it a while
It must've left me, no, I left it
Somewhere in the world carelessly
Well, either way, I know I won't see it again
But it didn't disappear
It's out there, still existing
Still a jumper somewhere
And I find that somehow kind of unbearable

Now it's somewhere out there lost
Yeah, it's somewhere out there lost
Maybe it's just in the wash

I'm sorry in advance
I think I'm 'bout to tell you one more tragedy, apologies
You know that parent that I lost, the one who died?
I know right, careless of me not to cure that incurable disease
I realise that there would come a day, one day
A day I wouldn't cry
And I would fret that meant forgetting or moving on
But he didn't disappear
He's in my head, he's a voice that's in my ear
That I've embedded
I know I won't, I can't forget it
It's there with every step I trek

Yeah, it changes you
Melts you down and moulds you back
And then you're standing there somebody new

Just somebody who has lost
Just somebody who has lost

Yeah, grief is searing hot
It's huge but it, it makes sense
So, it's almost peaceful
'Cause you know it's just love
Might be inside out, but it's love
Nothing more or less

You know that person that I had
The boy I love, the one who left me?
No, I left him, without realising the cost
When I'd accepted all was lost
No going back, no future memories, family
Familiar is what it was
I found myself right back in that same role again
As just somebody who has lost
And it fit me like a favourite jumper does
But he didn't disappear
He's out there, like my jumper
Still existing somewhere
And I find that somehow kind of more bearable

'Cause I'm someone who is lost
Yeah, I'm somewhere out there lost
Maybe I'm just in the wash