Thinking of Ending Things lyrics

[Chorus]
They say they want the real me, but they ain't listening
When I die maybe then they'll see, that I made history
In my brain these demons play, my head always rings
Even when everything's going okay, I'm thinking about ending things

[Verse]
Trying to ignore all my self doubt
Seeing all these demons what is that about?
Tryna get rich off of word of mouth
sh*t kinda hard when you from the south
I'm always faking I lie in profusion
I buried my skeletons now they protrudin
My self-esteem beaten you see the contusions
I'm awkward as f*ck what you see an illusion
Yokai be tap dancing all in my brain
Anxiety that sh*t will makе you insane
Confide in me, trust mе that sh*t be in vain
Can't focus on helping to busy in pain
Don't cut my wrist cuz I don't like blood stains
Don't talk to others cuz I feel too strange
I want to go off and just go deranged
But it's my character to remain tame
What I make sad music for?
Done this too many times
Get depressed when ya'll ignore
Why ya'll think I make stupid rhymes?
Maybe when I bleed on the floor
Ya'll start seeing the signs
Record even when my heart sore
Do you want more?
[Chorus]
They say they want the real me, but they ain't listening
When I die maybe then they'll see, that I made history
In my brain these demons play, my head always rings
Even when everything's going okay, I'm thinking about ending things