Retirement Plans lyrics

Well I went up north, and I got real sick
Then I got back home, and I got sick again
I had some time for thinking laying there in bed:
If I'm waiting for the right conditions, I'm waiting to be dead

My dad can't retire, and my mom can't too
They raised us on the discount groceries and the thrift store shoes
I don't mean that it was hard times. Nah, we had it good
I just mean they saved their money. What did it all go to?

I was working writing software. Man, I love that sh*t
Ruby on Rails in the backend...I know it ain't hip
We wrote code for social workers, and I liked what we did
Not gonna fix a broken system, but I don't know what is

But then I started hurting, some days too much to move
I wasn't built for all this typing, but what's one more thing to lose?
Used to love to be a smoker, and I could slam that booze, but sometimes the things you love...well, they just don't love you

Used to think we'd set the world on fire, find freedom in the glow
Now I'm ready for a quiet life, but the world's looking pretty flammable, and a man that I look up to picked up a gun when his time came due
I think he'd say: “Don't go looking for war, but sometimes war comes looking for you.”

So I went up to see him, and I got real sick
Then I got back home, and I got sick again
I had some time for thinking laying there in bed:
If I'm waiting for the right conditions, I'm waiting to be dead