i dont want this to be my final song lyrics

[Intro]
Hello? We all miss you, we hope you're doing okay
The actions you did are not acceptable, but we forgive you, and we hope you're safe
We'll see you soon, okay? I promise

[Verse]
Look so f*cking ugly need to change my face
Tell everyone I meet I'm a damn disgrace
Couldn't get the help I need, now I'm in this place
It's no one's fault but mine so please don't feel ashamed
I was way too young to be coerced that way
Never told anyone I said I'd take it to the grave
Right now since I'm older I'm a little more brave
But I can't undo the damage that's been done to my brain
Apologize all I want they won't hear a word I say
I think I got what's coming for me and I'm not even afraid