i found this weird cassette in the ruins lyrics

[Chorus]
I don't wanna go outside I’m terrified of light
I stabbed her in the back so many times but you're still mine
I don't wanna confess my sins, I must bring it to light
I cut myself one-hundred times so you don’t care tonight

[Verse]
Always been a loser, I will never fit in
Wasted all my high school years doing business
She done heard the same sh*t, she don't wanna listen
After all I guess I'm really not that different
What if she found out that I was lying
What if she found out that I was trying to die, and
So many selfish actions
They're all distractions
Self distruct myself, a bad habit
Wouldn't wanna be with mе if she knew all my past tensе
Starting fake relationships a really bad habit
All these real women getting emotional damage, I can't f*cking stand it
I don't wanna lead her on, I still wanna keep her on
I'll give up the drugs one day, just don’t leave me alone
I wasn’t raised right, that excuse could work for so long
I'm getting paid right? That’s the sh*t that made it all wrong

[Chorus]
I don't wanna go outside I'm terrified of light
I stabbed her in the back so many times but you're still mine
I don’t wanna confess my sins, I must bring it to light
I cut myself one-hundred times so you don't care tonight