My Mind (Cameras Remix) lyrics

Yeah, Lawd
Uh huh, eh
Alright, hm
I got stress and animosity that's running through my
Terrified I'll never make it wasted all this f*cking
I got stress and animosity that's running through my
I'm terrified I'll never make it wasted

[Verse]
I can't lie
Gotta tell the truth and to be honest with you my passion faded
I cannot recall the reason why I rap
When my pain remains and I'm still lonely
I am not famous
I'm a local n*gga
With a loss of focus
How did that happen
Dropped out of school I don't need college
Living with my mom and my f*cking father
And when they used to fight
That sh*t would keep me up
I got no sleep in my adolescence
And you wonder why that motherf*cker odd and now
My grades slim, now my teacher wanna talk it out
But what the f*ck is there to speak about when every other day I'm coming home to another World War
Don't nobody give a f*ck about n*gga or the pain that you feeling inside
That you would really confide
And I would never collage
A different life than the one that I live
And I was giving my all
With everything that I did
I was tryna paint a couple pictures for these kids
To see what I saw
When seated in my seat
Cause you living in The 'Burbs [?]
And everything is sweet
You ain't even got a care in the world said it must be nice
With a bunch of materials in your house that distracts from the fact that you're really all alone
I tried to make sense of the way that I've been guided
Scarred from my pain no real reason to hide it
Lost in this world with pain I put in consignment
And I can feel the negative energy in my silence
Meditating the moment to minimalize violence
Find the purpose in life
I feel like it's my assignment
I tried to help a handful of people with the rhyming
The reality is don't nobody even get it
Insinuating the flow
Disintegrating my words
I dissonated the hearse and regulated the verse
I've elevated my worth
Disseminating the search
Preach to the poor minds
I'm nothing more than a hypocrite
A theoretical lyricist literally killing it I came in the game with a dissertation
You can savor the flavor
The sound is amazing
In love with the rhythm I give em a safe haven
Damn!
Lawd
[Chorus]
I got stress and animosity that's running through my mind
I'm terrified I'll never make it wasted all this f*cking time
And I got stress and animosity that's running through my mind
I'm terrified I'll never make it wasted all this f*cking time

[Verse]
Every dime
All of my time it was spent
Invested inside of the craft
You probably couldn't even understand the effort that a n*gga giving
When he put it in your mind and speak it into existence
And with the way I'm working for certain I need distance
And I would never quit admitted you with persistence
I'm giving you a vision of a hideous condition with the lyrics that I've written and song about my convictions
I never stop
I cannot be complacent
I need to get sober my soul is sedated
I've made a rendition of cynical sued em an intricate poet composed a prophecy pardon my pain is apart of the problem I pray and I ponder my peace is the departed ridiculous way I can deal with the grief
Contrary do you believe you would've never beseech
And they were never on the level of I
I've found a way to make it clear that I was trying to survive
My life in each line
Describing these times
My future is looking bleak
And I am mentally weak
I seek to find wisdom
Knowledge above all nonsense
I'm aware that the pain don't end
I won't break up and
The spirit of Amen treated the record of my past and telling em my sins
Damn!
Lawd!