Hesitation lyrics

[Intro]
n*gga, what the f*ck is up? You tryna be rapping that bullsh*t, you think you're famous or something? n*gga what the f*ck, your sh*t's cool, it ain't Jah Blaze though. n*gga what the f*ck? Roll this blunt. n*gga what the f*ck you been up to n*gga, you can't pick up the phone no more?

[Chorus]
Knowledge, where you been
I tell 'em I've been writing rhymes
If they only understood what's on my motherf*cking mind
Can't waste no time, no I cannot waste my time
That's all the f*ck that I own
I pray to God I attain what I dream and imagine
No patience but I cannot stop

[Verse 1]
Why am I the only person that I know with a dream or purpose
Everybody else around me is a major threat
They want to infiltrate my thoughts with the negative
I said I try to block 'em out with mo' sedatives
I know I'm down at the moment, not accepting it
I'm broker than a motherf*cker, my regret is this
I should have never tried to spit
The moment I dropped out of college is constantly in my mind
I wish I could forgive myself so that my wound might heal
When I'm looking in the mirror, all that I can see is fear
I couldn't comprehend the consequence that came with my decision
Maybe I was never meant to be nothing from the beginning
I'm sick and tired of my livin'
I'm really looking to end it, my attitude is offensive
I guess that I realize that I'm actually unimportant
I'm pourin' all my emotion on the page, yes darlin'
But everything I deal with is making me feel hopeless
Lawd!
[Chorus]
Knowledge, where you been
I tell 'em I've been writing rhymes
If they understood what's on my motherf*cking mind
Can't waste no time, no I cannot waste my time
That's all the f*ck that I own
I pray to God I attain what I dream and imagine
No patience but I cannot stop, lawd

Oh sh*t, nah n*gga you was really serious. I didn't, yo I didn't think you was really gonna be doing this sh*t. I wrote this sh*t down today, you said you was gonna be ra-, I wrote it down like Brandon made a very funny joke today. That sh*t's comical n*gga, what the f*ck n*gga? Just get a job, n*gga, what the f*ck?

[Verse 2]
I think everyone has got a short attention span
They never see the bigger picture like it's happenstance
If you don't make it overnight, it's not happening
Oh your pessimistic attitude will never subdue me
I need a moment to myself, I gotta figure it out
And this sh*t is looking impossible, your vigorous doubt
You try to take a n*gga down with everything that you got
You act as though I couldn't see that that was really the plot
I'm living in my isolation, man, I like it a lot
'Cus I don't need nobody 'round me
f*ck it, I'll say it proudly
Guarantee I'm astounding, screaming it out loudly
Why must I do this alone?
I'm out on my own
With no place that I could call home
I need a pastor so I can atone
I feel like I'm dying and going to hell
I focus on my soul, not no damn record sales
Lawd
f*ck!