Lonely Reality lyrics

[Intro]
Standing in the rain
Take away my pain
Understand I am the shame
No one else to f*ckin' blame
Man I am so confused
Don’t know what to choose
Help me or do I help you?

Yeah it's hard to understand
What the f*ck I'm going for
What the f*ck is my plan?
My thoughts are full of gore
It's hard for me to control my mind
Got no future to explore
I'm drifting from the shore and I…

[Verse 1]
Hate myself more than my mother
Making my own supper, not without another lover
I don’t really wanna live, but I gotta give in
Givin' this another spin, I just want to win
Wanna give you everything, queen to my king
Not a f*ckin' string, yeah that’s the thing
I'm so alone, mentally yeah I already know
Not gonna say though, cause I already tried
Leading me to f*cking feel dead inside
Pointing to god, now I'm asking why?

Why doesn’t she want me?

And I'm dumb for thinking someone would want me like that
What the f*ck is wrong with me?
I've got no purpose, f*ck this
I can't take it, I'm in a ditch, can't breathe, I don’t wanna live

Who really cares anyways?
Who really f*cking cares?

I can't take it

[Verse 2]
Answers to the test that’s all that you wanted, never cared for me
Never thought of this being something
I'm so empty, I thought we could fill it yeah you and me
f*ck my stupidity
This is my reality