I Don’t Feel Alive lyrics

[Verse 1]
Skin and bones, stomach aches
Lucid dreams, hold my breath
When I'm wide awake
Connecticut, dissociate
Maybe I should buy a house
In a town upstate

[Pre-Chorus]
If I could, I'd wake myself up when I am somebody that I'm proud of

[Chorus]
I'm getting undressed for my lover
And praying she don't hate all my skin like I do
I'm reading books and drinking coffee
Stepping on a scale I keep in the bathroom
The water goes downhill, and still
I swim against the current with two arms that cannot fly
And I don't feel alive
No, I don't feel alive

[Verse 2]
Telehealth, TV episodes
Swallow seeds, but the fruit never seems to grow
Validatе, what I know
What I believe in and еverywhere I wanna go
[Pre-Chorus]
If I could, I'd wake myself up when I am somebody that I'm proud of

[Chorus]
I’m paying three different psychologists
Trying to remember who I told what story to
I’m writing feelings in a journal
'Cause that’s what people who have their sh*t together seem to do
The water goes downhill, and still
I swim against the current with two arms that cannot fly
And I don't feel alive
No, I don't feel alive

[Post-Chorus]
I keep coming up for air and ending up with water in my—
I keep coming up for air and ending up with water in my lungs

[Chorus]
I’m learning how to set my boundaries
How to have compassion for myself and for my mind
I’m turning off my f*cking cell phone
And trying to have honest conversations in real life
The water goes downhill, and still
I swim against the current with two arms that cannot fly
And I don't feel alive
No, I don't feel alive (I feel alive, oh)
[Outro]
I keep coming up for air and ending up with water in my—
I keep coming up for air and ending up with water in my— (I don't feel alive)
I keep coming up for air and ending up with water in my— (I don't feel alive, I don't feel alive)
I keep coming up for air and ending up with water in my lungs (I don't feel alive)