[LONE VERSE]
Somber
That's a feeling my gut
Them true colors gone dripping off with the storm
Now I'm caged like a mutt
Inside my head when the rain comes down I run and don't look ahead
Some days, I feel like I don't give a f*ck
About where I'm going, the river's overflowing so I'm already knowing Imma jump
Take me somewhere else I beg as I jump, jump, splash
Leaving behind memories from the past
At least so I thought
But when I cannonballed
They hit rock bottom
Ricocheted off a rock and resurfaced to the top
Like
What do I do? Where do I go?
It seems any direction I take the river speeds up its flow
And I can't get away
Upstream
Downstream
Upstream
Downstream
f*ck
If I'm running anywhere I'm running amok
Maybe I just suck
Maybe my happiness wasn't meant to be
And I'm only here just to please everyone
One, two, three
I'm counting every second I'm afloat till I sink
I wish I wouldn't do that
I wish I wouldn't think about every little thing
I think I wanna leave just like everybody did to me
I know that I can't blame them
They're going on with their lives
I just never thought I'd be part of the luggage left behind
Maybe I'm just scared that they're fine
I mean down inside where I seem to have conflict every time I ride these waves
I really wish I was okay
With dunking my head
Under every now and then
But I'm holding my breath above water in fear of it
It appears I'm aware of my surroundings
And I know where to run when I'm melancholy
But I can't hide from my problems they tsunamis
They say 'keep your head up' but I can't and I'm drowning