A Memoir to Myself lyrics

[Verse]
I'm like the veins pumping your blood
I been working too much
sh*t, I ain't even watchin' yo' motions
You been wildin' out and I been focused
I think that girl is a gun
Reload the clip and she shoot at the sun
Oh, you think that's yo' b*tch but she do that for fun
She just want what she want, she don't care who she love
I'm a dog, you a dog, baby let's start a kennel
Said I wanted some time, what is that on your mental?
How you pop up in my life and go like a pimple?
I just pour up the drink, think 'bout all my decisions
Know some times it get lonely but that's 'cause I'm winning
And my brodie just died, that's the end of the sentence
To bе honest, I don't want this sh*t but I'm blending
What the f*ck do you want? I'm just tryna rеplenish
Know some n*ggas that eat out ya heart
All my diamonds be bright but I came from the dark
Think I'm new to the game, you can't tear us apart
And I look just like money, can't tell us apart
I been givin' this sh*t all my back from the start
Damn, I lost all that sh*t, I had fifty-K large
I got smoke through my face, it was all a façade
Oh, that's just from the wood that I dropped in the car
What a wonderful feeling 'cause b*tch, I'm a star
That b*tch blunt full of J, man, I think she Solange
Keep on playing them games 'til I rip out the cards
I need a Barbie like Nicki Minaj
She not a fiend, she just f*ck who she want
Checking the clock, think I ran out of time
They know big GUCCI gon' blow like a mine
They actin' crazy, they think I'm a liar
sh*t, I was lost and nobody to find
n*gga, this real life, no strips or lines
Boy, get off my di*k, watchin' me online
Checking on you, hope everything's alright
'Cause death is the last thing I need in my life
All my n*ggas dyin' on me
I think the Reaper watching me
I don't know what to believe
Thought you belonged to me
If I sent you a flight, would you come to me?
No sweat bae, I'm just wondering
I been goin' up and now these n*ggas under me
n*ggas hatin' but, sh*t, it's love with me
Swear the sh*t they sellin' is all cheap
I need a thick b*tch to dissolve me
With the magic, told her, "Bi'h, call me"
By 10, she was in the lobby
I won't go, I dare a n*gga stop me
He gon' be another body
Man, I'm sick of n*ggas tryna try me
Took a n*gga, whack his mommy
I been on grind, on go for it
You ain't on sh*t, can't show for it
Swear these lil' n*ggas ain't makin' like no noise
Real bad news come through, kill yo' boy
I been working in the paint
I been sinning, b*tch, I ain't a saint
n*ggas hatin' 'cause they can't
n*ggas hatin' 'cause they ain't
I just walked in like I robbed the bank
So much blue hundreds like I paint
I might wash 'em in the sink
Not my money, it's okay
Had to make it my own way
Dazed and I feel a way
Ain't nobody give me pay
I done came a long way
It's like I'm tryna change my fate
But I ain't tryna change my face
But I'm just tryna go escape
Found out what I'm 'posed to be
Get a house right by the lake, uh
Get a house right by the lake (Get a house right by the lake)
I'm just tryna find my way (I'm just tryna find my way)
I'm just tryna find my— (I'm just tryna find my—)
I'm just tryna find my way (I'm just tryna find my way)
I'm just tryna find my way (I'm just tryna find my way)
Get a house right by the lake