​​stuck in memories lyrics

[Intro]
Ohh
Ever since you left me, my brain has been against me
Wish I could erase all of the memories
If I left the world tonight, would you even miss me?
I'ma turn up missin'

[Verse 1]
I'ma go M.I.A, I'ma turn up missin'
Disappear from everything, now I'm really distant
Born into this system, my brain is like a prison
Wish I could escape it, the darkness in my vision
The demons in my orbit; they take all my light source
Nothing left to fight for, I cry until my eyes sore
Smoke until I'm so high, don't feel like a life form
Egodeath the 3rd time, died again, I'm reborn
They tell me "be happy, just be glad it happened"
But my brain is f*ckin' crackin' from chemical reactions
I know that I'm f*cked up, the chemicals imbalanced
Probably from the acid, I feel like I'm Alice

[Chorus]
It feel like a science experiment in my mind
Take myself far away and leave it all behind
Tell me I'ma make it, but I know I'm wasting time
Death is like a ride, take a ticket wait in line
[Interlude]
Ohh
It feel like a science experiment in my mind
Take myself far away and leave it all behind
Tell me I'ma make it, but I know I'm wasting time
Death is like a ride, take a ticket wait in line
Take a ticket wait in line
Death is like a ride, take a ticket wait in line
Take a ticket wait in line
Death is like a ride, take a ticket wait in line
It feel like a science experiment in my mind
Take myself far away and leave it all behind
Tell me I'ma make it, but I know I'm wasting time
Death is like a ride, take a ticket wait in line

[Verse 2]
I feel like I'm useless more than f*cking ever
Ask me when I'm happy, probably f*cking never
I don't wanna feel the pain but I'm stuck in memories
Remember all the awful things you would f*cking say to me?
Damaged me emotionally, and socially, and physically
Left me all alone to rot in my own misery
Now I'm just a husk of who I once was
Laying on my bed, I know I'm not enough
Drown in my tears and I drown in the smoke
My life is a nightmare, I hope I overdose
I love to get numb, I can't f*cking help it
Mama, I'm sorry, I know that I'm selfish
Selfish— Mama, I'm sorry, I know that I'm selfish
Also I'm useless and helpless, my dreams are all fading
I'm living my life like a death wish