Regret lyrics

'Cause I don't want to take another breathe
Of this air which prolongs my death
And I don't want to take another step
In a direction that's plagued by regret

It seems like nothing in my life ever goes how I planned it
And sometimes it feels like there's too much stress to manage
It's been a while since I could say that I peacefully slept
The thoughts that are in my head, make me hate going to bed
But wait I take that back, I don't sleep in a bed at all
It's been almost a year since I had a homе or a job
For a while I was paying bills by just making this music
But that's why success is special, bеcause it's so easy to lose it

I lost everything I had, I won't pretend like I still got that sh*t
All I have left are my fans and all my empty promises
I don't answer my phone, so don't try f*cking calling it
I think I'm close to quitting despite how much I've fought that sh*t
Every day's another battle, my opponent is myself
It's either spend time recording or focus on my mental health
I feel another person every single minute
That's why I'm starting to accept the fact that I'm schizophrenic

I was diagnosed a while back, my parents don't believe it
They have been told by countless doctors, but they're still too blind to see it
On the bright side I stopped crying from the heartbreak I went thru
These b*tches say I love you, but I know that it's not true
My teachers told me stay in school so you can have a good life
I never listened to them because I had the fame on my mind
They told me when I dropped out that I'd always have a sh*t life
At the time I thought I'd get by, I'm thinking now that they were right
All these kids online say that I am an inspiration
They say they wanna be just like me, I tell them they're mistaken
Because nobody wants to live a life that's plagued by regret
I talk about killing myself, but I still haven't found the courage yet
Maybe one day I'll say f*ck it, and then pull the trigger
If I live or die, nothing changes, what's the difference?
I just know that when I die, I'll finally rest in peace
So please don't waste your time crying or remembering me

'Cause I don't want to take another breathe
Of this air which prolongs my death
And I don't want to take another step
In a direction that's plagued by regret

'Cause I don't want to take another breathe
Of this air which prolongs my death
And I don't want to take another step
In a direction that's plagued by regret