(Chorus):
I had to take a day or two to readjust my attitude
The world never gave me sh*t so I drown them in gratitude
This is what it feels like to mature
The type to jump out of the window cause life has so many doors, and every time I fall it's just one too many floors
I never claimed to perfect
I have one too many flaws
But every time they f*cking talk it just sounds like they’re mouthin' off
I'm intentionally disrespectful
Don’t excuse me when I scoff
(Verse 1):
I'm an upset to the system
System upset cause I overindulge in this liquor
Didn't
Plan on an addiction
I just thought it'd kill me quicker
My intentions are atrocious and it's easy to admit it
Introduce some THC
I can feel the difference
All this interaction bothers me
I can be dismissive if I'd like
I mean it's my f*cking life and I deserve to feel myself
Whether with words or with a knife
And if you like that you ain't right
And if I write that I’m not liked
But in this moment I feel blithe
Yes
Why I, always, make a left when something feels right?
It’s like I
Always stress whenever the burdens light
It's like I
Need the pressure
The easy moments make sick, a sudden change in weather
Plus I’ve got these problems in my head that I cannot discuss, but I don't think I can afford to cover them up with drugs
I mean I'm only human
Or so they say
So tell me you love me then break me anyway
I'm getting uglier
Every single day
Kinda wanted the pain, I always turn it into strength
The type that I don’t deserve
I have done a couple things that I can't put into words
And I have no sense of shame so I'm not sure what it's worth
But if I'm being honest with you, I just hope it didn't hurt
Cause…
(Bridge):
I don't want you to feel like me
I don't want you to see like me
I don't want you to burn like me
I don't want you to be like me
(Chorus):
I had to take a day or two to readjust my attitude
The world never gave me sh*t so I drown them in gratitude
This is what it feels like to mature
The type to jump out of the window cause life has so many doors, and every time I fall it's just one too many floors
I never claimed to be perfect
I have one too many flaws
But every time they f*cking talk it just sounds like they're mouthin' off
I'm intentionally disrespectful
Don't excuse me when I scoff
(Verse 2):
Secretly hoping you noticed the shift in cadence
A man's psychosis is nothing that you should play with
I have crossed the line
Went from humbly calloused to abrasive
And I have found that there's rarely anything heavy as hatred
And it's hard to love yourself when your sense of self is evasive
Give me that I'ma lace it, nah I don't need a chaser
It's sad to say but I like myself better when I am wasted
Oh I know I'm a waste of breath in your eyes
I guess it's best to just face it
I speak with graves
I know their language
Why do you think
I don't f*ck with strangers?
It's often dangerous where I'm from
And it seems like everybody's got a finger on a gun
Either that or they're strung out
It's nothing but f*cking dealers and addicts
Single mothers and bast*rds
People like me in between who are quick to make a f*cking crutch of a habit
And I ain't trying to kill myself but I'll be damned if I haven't
Already
And the anxiety's steady
Life looking me in the eyes
Acknowledge I am not ready
And I feel that down to my bones
So I wrote this one to let you know that you are not alone
Cause…
(Bridge):
I don't want you to feel like me
I don't want you to see like me
I don't want you to burn like me
I don't want you to be like me
(Alt. Chorus):
I thought I took a day or two to readjust my attitude
The world told me I wasn't sh*t
So I killed them with aptitude
This is what it feel s like to mature
This is what it feels like to mature?
I thought I took a day or two to readjust my attitude
The world told me I wasn't sh*t
So I killed them with aptitude
This is what it feels like to mature…
Oh well