Clean Train lyrics

[Intro]
How I feel, on a night when I’m this high
A better life, for my son can I provide
A better life, is what we promised
When we die, if its lies
sh*t I was honest I was criticized, crucified
Who doesn’t contemplate suicide
Who am I?
sh*t I got it made looking through your eyes
Looking through your eyes, I got it made

[Verse:1]
How I feel on a night when I’m this high
I’m a train wreck
A superman that doesn’t fly
Affection from women my kryptonite
Like something inside my mind was crippled when I was 5
And I made it my only purpose to get a dеal and be signed
Train wreck, to gеt a deal and be signed
Selling millions of records, a tall building to climb
I went over the world, one fan at a time
But once I got that under my belt, there was an emptiness
Still inside my stomach I felt
A void I couldn’t fill with all these plaques on the shelf
Been on so many flights, still I’m looking for steps
A wise man said you can study to death
But don’t know sh*t without the knowledge of self
Strangers know me better than I know myself
Tryna save the world, maybe I should help my self
You can’t buy loyalty no matter the wealth
Yeah, no matter the wealth
Before you’re crossing me look right, look left
I said before you cross me look right, look left
Because I’m a train wreck
[Verse:2]
Tryna help everyone else I hurt myself the most
I hurt myself the most
My heart cries tears of gold
This is the ballad of a hero, the path that I chose
I’m cautious when I get close
The outcome of making everybody's problem your own
Are they your friends or are they stunting your growth
I spread myself thin making all of this toast
The internet is not your friend
That silhouette is not your friend
Excessive praise is not your friend
Them b*tches f*cking on your n*gga is not your friend, behind your back
Don’t give me green circles cuz we not close friends
Sometimes I feel like I ain’t got no friends
All these rappers dying, my fears is not gonna end
I’m tryna elevate
Tryna stack commas but all commas do is separate
And I speculate never went to oxford, but all I do is educate
I’m not above myself
Strangers know me better than I know myself
Before you cross me look right, look left
I said before you cross me look right, look left

[Outro]
Because I’m a train wreck
Train wreck
Because I’m a train wreck
Train wreck