Tortured lyrics

I was like 13
And it was a Sunday morning I think...

And...
I think both of my parents were still asleep...

I remember..
I was gonna play sick so I wouldn't have to go to church that day...

And I turned over
And there he was...

Holding a pillow...
He smelled of sweat... and regret

.... and he said ....
"shhhhh"