19 lyrics

[Verse]
I looked god in the face
Tell me why you made me
Mamma never praised me, yeah that sh*t phased me
Now I'm full grown Styrofoam cup labeled
All I know is pain and yet I'm still so thankful
Thank you
Being in the mud taught me so much about the dirty
I did Xanax on the regular, I never lied in 30
Don't get wordy, I know you n*ggas heard me
You running with a thoroughbred, n*gga no derby
I learned to fend and fight by myself
For that reason I don't really think I need your help
I was 13, all I ever wanted was a belt
Hang myself by myself, show my people how I felt
In retrospect, I just wanted respect, I wanted to be treated like the motherf*cking best
Now I'm 19, still I'm getting treated like the rest
And at 19, I a'int ever think I'd be depressed
And at 19, still I do not know what to expect
And at 19, all I think about is when it ends
And at nighttime all I think about is having sex
Cause in that moment all I feel is pleasure not neglect, like