How Lucky Am I? lyrics

Well I know I might be wrong
And the vows I haven't made may be wasted
Copy and pasted from false memories

And I very well could be expecting
Too much from a lover
I needlessly suffer for soft yesterdays

And lovely laying on a porch in the rain
When faced with adverse circ*mstances it's the same

Still you love me, you say so
Enough to recognize that you're lucky, you think so
But how lucky am I?

If I turn it on it's head will the blood rush to it and make me dizzy
Or will it give me the truth that I crave?

When I post my 95 it comes out of me
Like rags on a scholar, a dog on a collar
For I make no sense
Afraid that hurtful words could fill my last breath
A million memories could not sew my chest

Still I hurt you, you say so
Enough to make you cry
Still you don't know
I don't show the reason for my lies