I Hate Love lyrics

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[Verse]
I took all the pills
Drank all the wine
I'm deep in my feels
This sh*t is hard to hide
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I pretend to be blind
I hate her
My heart break, my nose running
My eyes tear up, I'm [?]
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I wanted it to work, I wanted it to help
It's a beautiful lie