​i’m an addict lyrics

[Spoken Intro]
Ah f*ck, f*ck
f*ck, I don't even want to be awake right now
I don't wanna be f*cking thinking
Thinking way too f*cking much, I been
Trapped in my f*cking head
I don't even want that sh*t
Ego Mackey

[Verse 1]
[?]
[?], selling, drinking, no fear
Lived my whole life in fear, 'cause my mind always right here
Making friends with myself, always been bad for my health
Get high 'till I'm just a shell, popping them shells, go right to hell
Done too much dirt, can't ask for help, not like I would do that to myself
Take my charge and then deal with it, wait 'till I'm [?]
Let them feel this, fake happiness, heroin, close to bliss

[Hook]
Close as I can get to that sh*t, a few hours long
I can go waiting 'fore I go and take some [?]
Don't say it for me, know I'm an addict
Don't say it for me, know I'm an addict
Fake happiness, heroin, b*tch I'm close to bliss
Closest I can get, get to that sh*t
A few hours long I can go with—
Before I go and take some b*tch, yeah

[Pre-verse]
Don't say it for me, know, yeah I'm an addict
Don't say it for me (b*tch), know I'm an addict
Don't say it for me, know that I'm f*cked, yeah
Whole life sh*t, whole life, sh*t (hah)

[Verse 2]
Ah, but what can I do, what can I do?
Huh, you know that I'm broken, I'm broken too (huh)
And I feel like all I'm gonna do is hurt you (ah)
Drugged off blues, lean and xans, b*tch, yeah the Percs too
Canadi-Oxy, 80s blue, dirty 80s, green
Fentanyl, give you the blues
Fentanyl stuck to my brain, b*tch, like glue
Opiates stuck on my nerves, yeah, nothing new
I was high at fourteen, I was already bored of weed
Aye b*tch, yeah, you know I was born a fiend
Started selling xans and lean, ended up selling crack and beans
[?] most of it with methamphetamine
[?] mostly fentanyl, [?]
All these drugs, all these drugs, y'know they really killing me
All these drugs, all these drugs really live in me
When I'm dead, hope that they all f*cking miss me (yeah)
[Hook]
Fake happiness, heroin, close to bliss
Close as I can get to feeling that sh*t
A few hours long I can go without it
Before I go take some, and take some and then

[Outro]
Don't say it for b*tch, yeah, know I'm an addict, oh
Fake happiness, heroin, close to bliss
Close as I can get, yeah, to that sh*t
A few hours long, I can go without it, before
I go take some, go and take some, yeah
Don't say it for me, know I'm an addict
Before I take some, take some, yeah
Fake happiness, heroin, close to bliss